Confusing situation

I am in some trouble, I think. These days, I couldn't sleep well. I had lots of bad dream. I think I have to pull myself to go forward. The book I'm reading had affected me. The book is about Dracula. The title is "The Historian". I think this book is really great at describing the architectures, arts and some old historical places. I am not history person. Also, I am not European. I have lots of problem in reading this book. I've stumbled the weird named places I have never heard before. I am trying to search for information about that, but it's not easy. It is slowing my reading which is already slow due to my lack of english skill.

Anyway back to my life. I am thinking about my future seriously. I have to find something to give me a comfort. I think I am at a stake. I have to gather my thoughts and make up my mind. --;